The Silence

11 The Lord said, “Go out and stand on the mountain in the presence of the Lord, for the Lord is about to pass by.”

Then a great and powerful wind tore the mountains apart and shattered the rocks before the Lord, but the Lord was not in the wind. After the wind there was an earthquake, but the Lord was not in the earthquake. 12 After the earthquake came a fire, but the Lord was not in the fire. And after the fire came a gentle whisper.13 When Elijah heard it, he pulled his cloak over his face and went out and stood at the mouth of the cave.

-1 Kings 19:11-13

There is a deep silence haunts me more often than not

For a while I wondered if I was hated by Him because I felt this silence

I was judged by others for admitting I felt the emptiness

But I’m not alone in the silence

Mother Teresa felt it

Ingmar Bergman felt it

The writers of the Psalms felt it

It is even possible that the disciples on the hill in Matthew 28 felt it

I think that if most  are honest with themselves all have felt the deep aching silence that haunts the soul

That numbs the mind

That instills fear

The emptiness of existence is quite a burden to bear

I often wonder why, if He exists, why She is silent

When an innocent families life is taken away in a moment by a drunk driver the silence rings through the air

When tornadoes, suicide bombers, tsunamis, nuclear bombs, and the genocides fill the earth, it makes one wonder, where is He

But the silence can show up in other places too

Smaller events

Smaller moment

When life seems too harsh to have a happy ending

When your prayers feel like nothing but whispers that get whisked away by the wind

When religion becomes more oppressive than liberating


Yet His Silence is not all bad

For I’ve found

It is Silence that keeps us humble

It is Silence that keeps us open to mystery

It is Silence that draws us to grow closer with one another

It is the Silence that prompts us to encourage each other

It is Silence that forces us to…

suffer together

laugh together

create together


love together

that is the power

the affect

and yes

the beauty



~ Andy Motz


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